Thursday, May 7, 2020

Surrendering to not knowing

These past couple of months have been extraordinary. The world shut its doors against the COVID-19 virus. And we cannot see the future.

There has been a lot of talk going around on social media about people needing to find things to do to while away their time in isolation. Personally I haven't had time for any of that. I have been busier than ever bringing the studio into an online state, battling technology, helping staff and students battle technology, dealing with change at every turn, being frightened.

Frightened of what? For me, not so much of the invisible virus, but of the impacts to our wonderful yoga studio, our yoga community, our neighborhoods, our livlihoods.

Part of the challenge has been that we cannot plan for this. We do not have a set period that we can expect this to go on for, and hey presto, by such and such a date we will all be back to normal.  We cannot even be sure what normal will be on the other side of this pandemic. Even today as I write we are awaiting the results of todays National Cabinet wondering if maybe we can start going out again soon, maybe the studio can open again soon, as they plan to ease restrictions. But we don't know, and we do not know if we might have to close again if the dreaded second wave comes.

Isn't it so that the not knowing is one of the hardest things? When we recognise that we radically DO NOT KNOW we become aware that things are not within our control. But here is the thing. They never are! All this so called knowing, based upon the predictability of so-called "normal" is pretty much an illusion.

Vidyā - the veil of limited knowing

Of course it is not that we don't "know" anything. The power to know is an innate power of Consciousness. It is the limitation of that power of knowing that we are encountering in life, and that is what is scaring us.

We can understand this limited knowing, vidyā, as one of those limitations that Consciousness takes on in order to become immament, in order to manifest as us and everything we perceive. It is the limitation of the power of Consciousness known as jňāna-śakti.

Vidyā is constantly pointing us back to jňāna-śakti. In the words of awakened spritual teacher, Adyashanti:
"The door to God is the insecurity of not knowing anything. Bear the grace of that insecurity and all wisdom will be yours."

Surrendering to the limitation of knowledge

Well that is all very well for Adyashanti, awakened person, to say, you might be thinking. But this is exactly one of those times we can use the situation that is current in our lives to practice and potentially learn something really deep.  And Adyashanti is pointing directly at it. "Bear the grace of that insecurity" he says, by which I take to mean a surrendering to vidyā, not fighting it, "and all wisdom will be yours".

Wisdom is a kind of greater knowing, a wordless, conceptless knowing. In Sanskrit, widom is a translation of jňāna. What Adyashanti is pointing to is a great potential for breaking through the veil of our limitations to be more intimate with Consciousness itself, that which he has called God in this quote.

Noticing the difference between grasping to know and surrendering to not-knowing

Take a moment to sit. Be still. Be quiet.

Connect into your plans for the future. They do not need to be big plans, they might be a plan to log on to do a yoga class tomorrow, or to take a walk to the coffee shop to pick up your take-away. As you do so, feeling your way, sense the resonance of the thought plan, to do a yoga class or walk and pick up coffee or whatever it is. Take your time with this, especially if feeling the resonance of a thought is a new thing for you.

Stay with that resonance for awhile.  Feel into the assumed certainty that you will take that online class or that walk with the coffee stop. What does that certainty feel like. Beyond the thought construct, find the feeling in the body.

After a little while begin to shift your attention to all the things you don't know - not knowing when you could take a yoga class back in the studio, not knowing how we will recover economically as a nation, all the "not knowings" that are here right now, whatever they are.

And sense into the feeling of it all in your body. Beyond the concept and beyond the emotion of fear and uncertainty, find the feeling tone in the body.

Allow yourself to welcome that feeling tone, to settle into it, to relax into it, to love it for its own sake. This is not a trying, it is an allowing. Surrendering.

Staying with this, surrendering to this insecurity, to this entire feeling of not knowing. Stay with it. stay with it.

The longer you can stay with it, the more fully you are able to surrender, the greater the potential for the blossoming of wisdom.  Which, by the way, may not be a bolt of lightening, but a simple, settled grace of deeper knowing than the mind could ever have.




Thursday, March 12, 2020

Calming and strengthening in difficult times

At WOMAD last weekend, I had a number of instances of discovering that people from different circles, and not even necessarily residents of Adelaide, were connected to each other in some way. So I appreciate the enormous task that the health authorities have when it comes to tracking down the people who have been in contact with people who have tested positive to COVID 19, and all their contacts. We are so interconnected. A virus's dream! And also our own, as a sense of connectedness is one of the most important things to our mental health.

Of course connectedness is the truth of all Reality, streaming forth as it does from one source "on the 'canvas' that is Herself"*. So our sense of connectedness is a little bit of ourselves recognising the truth and coming home to it.

Today I want to offer many ways your sadhana (yoga/spiritual practice) can support you and all others during these tricky times. It is true to say that when we are under pressure we have more tendency to grow and evolve. So if Corona Virus is making you think more about what you do and what you expose yourself to, use that to deepen and double your sadhana.

A strong energy body is a stronger immune system

Many yoga practices will assist you in warding off disease. Certainly practices that are aimed at your physical fitness will help - a fit body is always going to be better placed to resist disease. But I am referring to practices that build your energy body in other ways.

Breathing practices, practices that directly bring you into experiencing and working with your energy body, visualisations and mantra are all going to help you here. And there are practices also that you can utilise to assist others as well.

One great way to bring sadhana into daily life is to dedicate everything you do to the benefit of all beings. Start your day with the mantra lōkāḥ samastāḥ sukhinōbhavantu meaning May all beings in every realm be centred in happiness and joy, free from suffering and centred in the state of unified peace! May it be so. Listen to it here so you can learn it. It is easy.

Dedicating yourself and everything you do to the benefit if all beings in this way has an immediate impact on your state of mind, and it aids you in cultivating discrimination in all you do. It also navigates the mind away from fear and into a state of loving kindness.

Add on visualisations

There are many visualizations that you could use but I'd like to share this one with you that I have been practising for years. It once helped me heal from a very serious injury. Always frame this visualization in a way that will be personal to you. For example, you may have a personal relationship with a deity and could use the visualization of the deity as the golden light described below.

I like to do it this way.

Above me is a golden light. It is full of healing. As I inhale, the healing energy flows down and into my heart. As I exhale it spreads out into every corner of my body. If I have a particular part that needs healing, I will direct it there especially. After a few minutes, I am so full of healing light I can send it out into the world. The golden light above is infinite, and this process can go on forever, and nothing will be depleted, only filled.

Make hand-washing a sadhana

Since you will be spending more time washing your hands, spend every hand-washing with a mantra and it too becomes yoga. You need to spend at least 20 to 25 seconds on your hand soaping right? Three rounds of the lōkāḥ samastāḥ together with the Oṃ śānti śānti śānti will time it right. Or you might use the mahāmṛtyuṃjaya mantra which is powerfully healing.

Yoga is more essential than ever

Your yoga practices are more important then ever. Don't skip your practice because you are feeling fearful or stressed. Double it. Yoga will antidote your fear and literally build your resistance to disease. It may surprise you also that more than your physical yoga, thought that is also helpful, but your meditation, mantra japa, energy body work will build the system's resilience far more.

May you be peaceful and happy. Om.

* Quotation from the Pratyabhijñā-hṛdaya of Kṣemarāja verse 2 translated as the Recognition Sutras by Christopher D. Wallis.




Wednesday, February 19, 2020

Limiting the limitless - pointers to your True Self

The Kaňcukas part 2

Last month I wrote about the five Kaňcukas, which are like veils that limit the vast perfection of the Divine Everything so that it takes form as the diversity that is the manifest universe. Today I will say a few words about each of these.

But first, it is important to note that these limitations, though they lie like veils over our true nature concealing to ourselves the vastness of who we really are, they are not something to be despised or something we need to be rid of. Everything is to be welcomed on this path. And the wonderful thing is that the very aspect that is a covering is also a clue, even a portal through which we might find our way home.

This article refers to the way we can use our iRest® Yoga Nidra meditation practice to help us work with the Kaňcukas. If you are unfamiliar with iRest please visit www.irest.org/ to learn more.

I am also indebted to Christopher Wallis for assisting me in understanding the Kaňcukas and I recommend the relevant section of his book Tantra Illuminated. He explains it far better than I ever could.


Limited agency Kalā

The first step on this path of creation is the limitation of omnipotence (the Divine power of action, which is limitless). The most important thing to note about this is that it does not make us powerless in our embodied form. Kalā is not impotence. It is indeed the Divine power of action itself, just a little pared down. 

Our spiritual path is to nurture and grow that divine Power until we finally realise our full and innate divinity.

In practice, this will mean that when we encounter the power of action in its limited form we have an opportunity to expand it a little. This is why they are pointers.

So meeting “there is always more needing to be done” and my urge to do more, I can also recognize the divine power of doing that brings all of this manifestation to being and dissolves it all back again. If I meet the feeling of powerlessness, can it point me to the feeling of potency? And while we might see these as two opposites in the movement of emotions in awareness, just as we come to know welcoming, and wellbeing as aspects of awareness, so too both omnipotence in its fullness, and its self-limiting form we experience in embodiment are ultimately aspects of that one consciousness as well.

Limited knowing - Vidyā



The limitation of knowing – Vidyā, is not ignorance. Māyā conceals the fullness of omniscience in order to project Consciousness into manifestation.



We are granted the ability to know something about our world and to continue to learn more about our world. The biggest trap of Vidyā is not the urge to know more, it is thinking that what you know is all there is.



The old story of the blind people and the elephant illustrates this.

“A group of blind men heard that a strange animal, called an elephant, had been brought to the town, but none of them were aware of its shape and form. Out of curiosity, they said: "We must inspect and know it by touch, of which we are capable". So, they sought it out, and when they found it they groped about it. In the case of the first person, whose hand landed on the trunk, said "This being is like a thick snake". For another one whose hand reached its ear, it seemed like a kind of fan. As for another person, whose hand was upon its leg, said, the elephant is a pillar like a tree-trunk. The blind man who placed his hand upon its side said the elephant, "is a wall". Another who felt its tail, described it as a rope. The last felt its tusk, stating the elephant is that which is hard, smooth and like a spear.” (Wikipedia's version)



Each thought that they knew what an elephant was, but when they shared what they knew with each other they fell into arguing.
Image credit, medium.com





And this is the trap of Vidyā we see played out in life. This is the human tendency to believe our own limited subjective truth and to ignore, dismiss and even repress the limited subjective truth of others.



In terms of our personal spiritual path, we may fall into a trap based on a limited experience of thinking that we’ve “arrived”. So part of our path is to always seek to expand our understanding.

In fact the manifestation of “Vidyā” of believing “There is more I need to know” is to be welcomed as it keeps us questing.

Vidyā is nothing but the limited form of the divine power of Knowing, jňāna-śakti. As we expand our horizon of limited knowing we more closely approximate towards jňāna-śakti.

Ultimately of course we seek to move beyond words and thinking to the knowing that is an inner wisdom, a lifting of the veil of Māyā to sense that which all the words of teachers, live or in writing, ancient or modern, can only hint at, though they may point the way.



In practice – what we think we know is what we believe. In our quest to expand our knowing, we are seeking to situate what we know in a wider context. In iRest®, our practice in the realm of beliefs does just that. If I am believing “I am a failure, everything I do just turns bad, I have the touch of death for any enterprise” and I come up with all sorts of memories to support that, and I wallow in all the emotions of that, I can use the iRest process to expand that and situate in a broader context, allowing me to move beyond it. I can do that by work in the opposites, what is the opposite or alternative to “I am a failure”? We can work with it anthropomorphically – if this belief walked into the room what would it be … can you dialogue with it. Substitute any belief … “my religion/atheism is true and others are wrong, even evil”, “my politics are the best, the other mob are dangerous”.


The limitation of perfection - rāga - desire


 When the veil of Māyā limits the divine powers, divine perfection is thus limited, and in our embodiment, which is possible only due to all this limiting, we have the sense of not being complete. This leads to desire and craving, raga, as we seek that which will make us feel complete. We misplace the direction of our yearning and crave material possessions, recognition, fame, acknowledgement, food, attention, holidays, physical connection, sex, a different body, and so it goes. We may even fall into addiction to food, alcohol or other substances. If I feel imperfect in this now, in this body, then perhaps if I can get that then I will feel whole. If only everybody paid more attention to me, then I would know I am whole. If only I were 10kgs lighter, then I would feel more perfect. If only I had more money.

In fact all desire, all craving, is the yearning for Divine Perfection, which ironically is already here, just the veil of Māyā prevents our recognition of it. In our work in iRest® we invite connection with what we call the Heartfelt Desire, (though many like to use other terms and that is fine). Eventually we might come to recognise that Whatever we first identify as our heartfelt desire is ultimately that yearning for the wholeness of Divine Perfection.
Watch for the guises in which desire becomes cloaked by the mind … but I need this. But the other is lacking for not giving me attention. But life is unfair and I deserve such and such.
Other literal meanings of the word rāga are to colour or tint; and a musical harmony or melody.
Desire colours the mind and tints our perspective and influences how we see the world and other people. For example: The desire for attention will see everybody else’s attention as belonging to ourselves and we will become demanding of it, even manipulative to achieve it … and this will colour all our relationships.
In Indian music a rāga is also like a scale, but also like a theme upon which variations can be played. And the musical notes present themselves with dissonance and resolution. The dissonant notes will feel imperfect, they crave a resolution. And then of course the resolution comes and the harmony resolves. That dissonant note is the craving for fullness.
Desire, rāga, shows us areas where we may need to expand ourselves more fully. Self-inquiry, as in meditation but also in reflection, can reveal our cravings. OK if we have a craving for peanut butter that is easy to identify, but truly recognising something like our craving for attention may require us to open our eyes somewhat, to be come more self-aware in the small s sense. 


Rāga is not to be rejected, but transmuted.
  • Recognise desire, truly
  • Trace desire back to its source
  • Recognise your yearning for divine fullness
  • Allow that yearning to guide you home – you are just following the perfume!

The limitation of time - Kāla

From the timelessness of Pure Consciousness, linear time is a requirement of embodied experience. In pure Consciousness everything is simultaneous, but as embodied beings we experience one moment after another.

Our awareness of linear time also gives us the sense of past and future. Our sense of the past can make us feel guilty, regretful and also nostalgic. Our sense of the future can make us fear, worry, and also fantasize.

It is easy to appreciate the burden of guilt and worry. But less obvious is that nostalgia and fantasy are a burden. But we are grasping at both, attached to both and in that attachment we are missing the middle point.

Poised in the middle is the present moment, so much eulogised in our age of mindfulness practices.
It is the sense of linear time that seems to be the distinguishing mark of the human animal. Do the animals fret with guilt over their past failings or with worry over the potentiality of the future. Do they have nostalgia or do they fantasize?  Well we cannot know for sure but it appears not. Yet the mindful now we humans seek is not that of the animals. It is in our reflection on the past and anticipation of a future that we find a potential for evolution, for growth.

We seek to stay in the present with full awareness of guilt and nostalgia, worry and fantasy, all the while being free of them. Again, the limitation of time, manifesting as guilt or anxiety, nostalgia or fantasy, is welcomed as the pointer to the state of Presence. – The present which constantly flows, is constantly flowing from Consciousness and unfolding as manifestation and is simultaneously reabsorbed into Consciousness.

We can invite the law of opposites to guide us, working with pairs such as:
  • Guilt and nostalgia
  • Fantasy and worry
  • Fantasy and nostalgia
  • Guilt and worry
  • Nostalgia and worry
  • Fantasy and guilt

The limitation of space - Niyati


Niyati is very interesting. It is the limitation that results in us experiencing individuality and separation.

Pure Consciousness has no dimension. You may have experienced this immense spaciousness. In iRest we often ask the question: is there any centre, is there any periphery, inviting the discovery of, no there is not, there is everywhere-ness and nowhere in particular-ness.

(Richard Miller, creator of iRest, has said that that expression he uses so often, everywhere and nowhere in particular, was how one veteran in one of the early PTSD trials at Walter Reid described it, and he picked up those words as being the best representation he had come across.)

Niyati creates the three dimensions of space, in which materiality is possible, and in so doing the sense of location, of having centre and periphery, comes about. And since we also have the sense of not being able to occupy the same space as anything else, the sense of separation arises. Niyati then is the restriction of the formless transcendence that is Śiva itself!

In embodied life we constantly experience niyati by the very sense of our body as a spatial location. We also experience frustrations of space, not having enough of it for example, or the space we occupy not being good enough.


Everyday practice is to reorient ourselves to all our actions being in selfless service. This might seem tricky when we meet our pure motive prayer, I practice out of love for myself, out of a desire to know the truth … until we refine our understanding that it is only in the sense of separation created by niyati that we have a sense of ourself at all, and to serve ourself is to serve all others. HOWEVER, that does not really let you off the hook. In loving yourself, you need not seek endless fruits for yourself, and the more you ardently discover the Truth, the less that is seen as a true goal. And in the prayer for pure motive, it is underpinned by “for the benefit of all beings” which immediately removes “selfish” motive.

In meditation we invite an experiential welcoming of Consciousness – Awareness – as unbounded spaciousness.

That can also be a micro meditation for anytime. Just stop. Expand. Touch into that spaciousness, even if just for a moment.

It is like the dyer dying the cloth. To obtain a really rich colour the cloth goes in and comes out. Then it will go in again, and out, and in again, and so on until the colour is at the rich hue required. So too we are dipping into pure spaciousness, again and again. Eventually we are saturated with it and it never leaves us.


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Tuesday, January 7, 2020

The five pointers - Kaňcukas

Part 1

Learning never ceases. I am constantly looking for guides from whom I can glean more gems from the yogic path.

I have recently done an online course with a beautiful and stunningly intelligent woman by the name of Kavitha Chinnaiyan … cardiologist, and lineage holder in the Sri Vidya lineage. During the course she explained that to ascribe gender to siva and sakti is only a device, that gender cannot truly be ascribed to them as they are but aspects of oneness, that even to use such a term as oneness, implying as it does that there is a more than one, does not do justice to That which we seek to describe. She also gave a powerful image of how the world becomes manifest – as sakti turns to face siva, manifestation dissolves into the still spaciousness of siva, as sakti turns away manifestation occurs, and sakti turns and turns, like the blinking of an eye, so there is a pulsation in this manifestation, a throb, a vibration, we do not usually notice it, manifestation seems continuous, just like when you run the individual frames of old fashioned analogue film through the projector, the world on the screen seems continuous and you do not see those moments in the frame where there is no picture. This vibration is called Spanda.

But the View writings reveal more detail about how this manifestation occurs.

Kaňcukas: concealments for manifestation


In this process there are five concealments that mask our oneness. These concealments are necessary in order for that which is unlimited to take form. In Sanskrit they are called the Kaňcukas, in iRest®, Richard Miller dubbed them “the pointer sisters”. I will come back to the reason why.

The concealments, or limitations, are:
  1. Kalā – limited agency (or doing)
  2. Vidyā – limited knowing
  3. Rāga – limited perfection = desire/craving
  4. Kāla – limited time – sequential time, divisions of time, passing of time
  5. Niyatī – limited space – localisation and causality

We can easily see these in action.
  1. There is so much more I need to do.
  2. There is so much more I need to know
  3.  I so much crave that … < insert latest craving here> (holiday in Bali, new car, chocolate bar, better body)
  4. I just don’t have time, am running out of time, I have a past, I anticipate a future
  5.  I don’t have enough space, I need a bigger house, closet, kitchen etc – or I am too big, I am too small, I am in the wrong city, I am not happy unless I am at the beach etc

iRest® founder Richard Miller calls them pointer sisters as they are like signposts with an arm pointing both ways.

  • This way – manifestation, embodiment and the sense of being incomplete
  • That way – lifting through the veils to recognition of true nature as always whole, nothing needing to be done, omnipotent, omniscient, perfection, eternal and infinite.

Between recognition and the Kaňcukas of limitation is Māyā, laying like a strata of cloud that conceals the sun. 

Have you ever had the experience of taking off in a plane on an overcast day? The plane leaves the ground in dull conditions and enters the cloud and things are even duller. Then there is a moment when the plane breaks through the cloud and you find there is brilliant sunshine above the clouds.

Our perception is like that. When embodiment happens and a sense of I develops, that "I" loses the sense divine Oneness and feels separate and different to everything else. This is like living in dullness. When you break through the clouds you awaken to the brilliance of non-duality. Sink below the clouds and and you are in the realm of limitations and a sense of separation.

So they are pointers because as we can recognise them as they are present in our lives we can also take them as reminders or pointers to who we really are.

These limitations are never a voiding of the unlimited attributes of the Divine Oneness. The limitation of infinite power is not impotence. It is just enough of a limitation for dimensions and linear time and action to be possible, preconditions to manifestation and embodiment. So meeting the Kaňcukas is not to be despaired at, nor are they to be rejected. You are not trying to get rid of them, just to recognise what is on the other side of that strata of clouds, Maya, and what these pointers represent!

Try this sadhana, spiritual practice, you can take it on for a week, a month or forever; notice the action of the Kaňcukas in your life, and you might journal how they affect you and reflect on how they might be pointing you to your true self.

In Part 2 we will look at each of these in more detail.

Thursday, December 12, 2019

Joy

"I slept and dreamt that life was Joy. I woke and found that life was service. I acted, and found that service was Joy." ~ Tagore
It is December and Christmas carols are everywhere. "Joy to the world" they sing! Yet in the yogic understanding of who we are, joy is always here, it is a part of the fabric of our being. That is, if we translate the word "ānanda" as joy ... it might also be bliss, or maybe rapture.

My parents gave me Joy as a middle name. As my meditative life has developed I find that central position of Joy in my name to be just how it is. Through meditation I find that Joy is at my centre. Even on a bad day I can stop a moment and reconnect to it.


Joy in the yogic traditions


Yoga philosophy is full of models of our nature to help us find our way to the truth about ourselves. These models can differ from one tradition to another and so it is with the concepts of the self as layers, the Vedic system differs from the Tantric system. But both have something to offer.
Ānandamāya is in the most subtle layer in the Vedic kosha system and in the iRest Protocol. 


My own drawing of the five koshas, modelled on numerous other sources

Tantric five layered self from https://hareesh.org/blog/2015/12/16/the-five-koshas-and-the-five-layered-self-a-comparison

 In some representations of the Vedic kosha system ānanda is the centre, seen as the goal, the ultimate, in others, such as the one top, above, it is still a layer, subtle but still a sheath or covering on true nature.


Ānanda, Joy, is not present in the Tantric five layered self, but that is not to say that Bliss, Joy, Ānanda is not very important in the Tantra. Ānanda is different from temporary joy that comes from sense pleasures, though such pleasures can help us glimpse it; ānanada is bliss that is an aspect of the completeness of pure Consciousness.

 It is therefore is not attained by any technique or study itself; ānanda is not something that is achieved. It is more something that is regained. All the yogic practices are working more to strip away what veiled ānanda not to create ā
nanda.


Life is joy


If there is a season that seems the most joyful it would have to be Spring, wouldn't it? That is because life is springing freshly all around in spring.  I imagine this must be amazing if winter is blanketed in snow and life goes into suspension, bursting forth as Spring thaws the frozen world, the grass grows, the birds and animals are busy mating and giving birth.  But even in Australia it is easy to feel that surge of joyful life in Spring.

When we think of what gives us joy, baby things just have to feature. Who doesn't love watching kitten and puppy videos on Facebook or YouTube ... why can we "waste"so much time on them? Because they bring us joy and we so long for that joy. Can you remember holding a newborn baby? Ah! the delicacy, the smell, the joy! It is not by accident that joy is so accessible through baby things, life is renewed in baby things, and life is joy.

I also find that birdsong, and the activities of birds, watching birds is also a call to joy. Do you?

Cultivating somatic awareness, as we do in yoga practice, helps us to connect with our innate joy. When we have developed an acute somatic awareness we can feel the pulse of life in the tissues. The feeling of being alive. And it is joyful. So to connect with joy nothing in particular needs to be happening, if you can feel life in the tissues you can feel joy.

Of course a few memories of kittens, puppies and babies are certainly helpful. They flood our brains with the chemicals that can counteract the woeful chemicals that sometimes block our somatic awareness and keep us locked in a sense of misery. 

The more we consciously connect with our joy, the more open our brains become to the presence of joy, and it becomes a positive feedback loop.

So stop, listen to the birds, watch them, watch those kitten videos, feel the joy, celebrate life. Joy is an aspect of the divine and a part of who you are.


By Tatiana Gerus - originally posted to Flickr as Lorikeet's wings, CC BY 2.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=6552046

Friday, November 29, 2019

Grace

The iRest® class on Saturday mornings that I started in August 2019 has proven to be a gift of opportunity for deep reflection.  The other week I reflected on grace, and shared those reflections with the class, and then benefited from the class's reflections.  That is the kind of class it is.


Helpful key words are: 
  • Anugraha - divine grace, the grace of universal consciousness pervading everything, that we come to recognise in spiritual awakening
  • Shaktipat - (shakti - divine power, and pat - to fall) descent of grace

It is important to distinguish what we mean by Grace from how it is used in a Christian context, where God's Grace is frequently invoked. The word grace in the Christian context has an intermediary between the recipient of grace and God, it is, as so much of that theology is, a step removed. Grace is spiritual healing granted by God the Father, through the Son, Jesus.

Anugraha has no such intermediary. Shaktipat is direct, often sudden, undeserved. 

Grace, Anugraha, is divine consciousness in everything. It is present in everything because everything is it. We just do not recognise it when we are living in a limited, conditioned state. 

At a point in a spiritual aspirant’s life there will probably be a moment of Shaktipat – when the felt sense of that power of divine consciousness in everything breaks through the conditioned limitations of the mind at least momentarily. It leaves behind a metaphorical perfume the aspirant (if they were not one before they will be now) is bound to follow that scent.

In iRest we invite what we call the Heartfelt Desire to reveal itself. What does our heart yearn? we ask ourselves. What we yearn is that perfume even if only faintly discerned. Grace calls us. 

The writings of spiritual teachers are full of memoirs of Shaktipat.  Vast and amazing moments, perhaps in the presence of seemingly at the instigation of their own teacher, the sudden moments of the revelation of the connection of everything. 

However Grace is not always such a show pony.  There are gentle revelations. Don't dismiss them. 

There is that moment on the beach when the sun is setting. Suddenly the clouds are alight with orange and purple when suddenly the cold snap of wind, the sting of sand and salt, and that colour, are what you are, and while you are no longer separate from any of it, including the potential new boyfriend you have ventured there with, he is no longer of any special interest and when it fades, this moment, and limitations return, that lingering perfume have rendered him uninteresting and you yearn only for that again.

There is that moment when you are walking amongst great trees, trees that have stood for a thousand years. They do not exactly think, and they do not exactly talk, but in their great presence your heart feels that perfume and ancient treeness pervades your being. 

Or that moment when you are simply breathing in deeply the scent of a rose and suddenly scent of rose, the soft satin of petal, and your whole being are one.

An echo stays, lingers, draws you on. Ah, if only to melt in it always, to not return to the mundaneness  of the conditioned mind, to recognise the truth of who you are in every moment. Now you are caught in the quest, it cannot be let go.


Tuesday, October 29, 2019

The heart-mind

We tend to experience our head as being the seat of the mind, which we consider to be the realm of thoughts, whereas our emotions are of a different world, perhaps of the heart. However this is a rather cultural division. Sages of the Indian tradition wrote of the heart-mind. If they wrote of the heart, they meant the heart-mind. If they used a word such as manas, which is usually translated as "mind" they  mean heart-mind. Is this a way of seeing that is useful for us?

It is not hard to experience the interrelationship of thought and emotion. For example, let's say we take a belief that I am not good enough. If you take that belief to be true, what does if feel like in the body. This is just a thought, a belief. But do you feel it in your head, or in the body? What emotions are co-arising as you take this belief to be true? Where in the body do you feel the emotion? Now let's take another belief, let's take the belief I am perfect just as I am. If you take this belief to be true, where do you feel it in your body? And what emotions co-arise with it? Where do you feel that emotion in your body?

You can try this also with memories, images, all kinds of cognitions. Can you have a cognition without a visceral feeling experience, or without emotion?

My own experience is that thought and emotion are always present together, and they always have a feeling right in the body somewhere, often in the chest region, that is, in the heart. Even though I have the cultural conditioning of thinking in the head, if I stop and examine my actual experience, the experience is mostly in the torso of the body, in the heart! Chances are high that I am not unique and this might be your experience too.

So it turns out that English is inadequate to express this, though we can turn it to reflect our true experience with some creativity. In the article I link to below, a Chinese man in a case study who is saying he could not rest, uses an expression that literally translates as I could not put my heart down. To draw attention to our true experiencing we might use expressions like body-mind or heart-mind.

If you have experiences of insomnia, perhaps next time you are laying awake you could amuse yourself by noting the experience in your body, rather than the churn of thoughts being in the head. Perhaps you could experience not being able to put your heart down on such a night. And see how it is an ever changing feeling-scape.

It comes back to somatic experiencing and yoga practice is about somatic experiencing, ever refining our ability to feel into even the subtlest experiences of the body. A slow and somatic yoga practice, whether you flow or hold postures, turning attention inward, reveals it all.


If you are interested, I found this academic article, Thinking Hearts, Feeling Brains:Metaphor, Culture, and the Self in Chinese Narratives of Depression that shows the cultural dimension of where we experience the seat of thought.

Image sourced from another nice article Wisdom is a Matter of Both Heart and Mind Neuroscience.com